I guess I did another amazing thing today for the humanity cause. I signed up as a volunteer math tutor for the Baltimore County Community College. It is a two months commitment to begin with, tutoring at all levels of math and with the possibility of getting part time teaching tenture. The lady at the department said they are desperately in need of tutors. But the way she described it were so freaking scary. "98% of our students here need help of some form. Some even have problem conceiving 2 - 3" she said. I hope she did not literally means that. Anyway, I look forward to my first day of tutoring. Indeed I wonder.

It was desvastating when my file space were wiped and my site was down for the last 5 days. It was more furiating and total upset when my tech supports did nothing to help. Somehow I had this feeling that they were retaliating against me for bashing and making negative comments of them. They were slow at responding, very unprofession and terrible at supports. I made it clear to them that if nothing were done by yesterday, I will quit their service. I spent more than 4 hours with them over 10 chat sessions. Still nothing were taken care of. I was about to quit when the quality assurance group got back to me. They restored my file within less than half an hour. That furiated me more. Why couldn't the technicans does that 5 days ago when it is as simple as restoring my data? I also found out that they have the same 'out-source' technicians handling sale, customer support, and tech service. Seriously, unless they make effort to improve it, I assure they will lose revenue very soon!

What has happened I don't know, but for once I was feeling very happy and hyper tonight. Some nerves must had tangled up. I couldn't help smiling and chuckling up. The joy was there and overwhelming. The feeling brings back the old me where I was all inpired and energized to take on the world. There was no perception of fear, no doubt of my ability to tramp all inpossibilities. I feel loved and the life's all wonderful.

That was the feeling I lost a long while ago when I turned myself over to the reality. The pessimism hitted me as I became more obesessed over life. Once in a while, a shred of light dim through. I supposed that's what happened tonight.

Nonetheless, the renew feeling was awesomely great. Many happy thoughts subsequently flows throught. I thought about how lucky I'm, having a wonderful family and many wonderful friends. I thought about my career,having a solid path and positive future. I shoved away all the negative thoughts or rather I perceive them positively.

Indeed I'm on the path of budha enlightenment...

I hope for that feeling to lasts endlessly...

Once in a while those questions came to me. What if I have a million dollar. What if I hit a jackpot lottery. What if I came up with a brilliant idea like those of Google, Facebook, Youtube, Myspace, or QQ. Then it would be a dream comes true and I would retire (Yes, I would!). My life would be all beautiful afterward. Get to enjoy everything I love to do and to live life to its fullest. Happy ending, wouldn't it? Sure this is a dream of everyone. Those companies I mentioned are all started by teens like just me, and it's not unlikely that I might hit the jackpot one day. Just a bit of inspiration with a bit of luck, and the world's mine!!

I often hear people says that money isn't everything and it can't buy you the world. But without the money, I say you might as well go jump off the bridge. Our society has deteriorate to an extent nowadway that our life has become completely dependent on it. Think about it, where would you be and what role you would play in the society if you have no money? This bring up the depressing fact that for the next 40 years of my life, I will be working my life away. That is, if no luck hits me. How depressing

There are 24 hours in a day. On a typical day, I spent 8 hours sleeping, 1 hour on the road, 2 hours eating, 8 hours working, 2 hours other misc futile activities. That left me at most 3 hours of quality time, less some non-productive time. It's scarely when you realized how short life truly is. That bring back the question, what if I have lot, Lot, LOT of Money.

So much for the daydreaming.

Pics from my cousin's wedding past weekend. Wasn't so happy that the homecoming weekend was on the same weekend which I missed.


my cousin & her man

A friend told me today that she's upset because she got bad grades on what she tried hard on. She asked me what to do. I told her that she should believe in herself and never quit trying. When she try, everything can be possible. That was my bold answer to her. But whether that is true or not, even I questioned myself. Everyone has been trying, for a purpose or for a dream. Yet how often do we witnessed a dream comes true? I'm no exception either. There are things that even if I try all I could I still could not possibly accomplish. But knowingly, I keep on trying. I didn't want to give up hoping. The reality is cruel and unfair most of the time. I don't know if I could called this fate. But I have tried to defy fate.

I got up very early today (around 11:00am ) so I can make it on time for the many moon's festival event at Towson University. It was their biggest cultural event of the year as I was told, that bring together multiple cultural showcases and performances from regions included Japan, Vietnam, China, Korea, Thai, India, and Filipino. Since Prince Li as you have known well is someone who embraces culture and love meeting cultural people, there's no way he will want to absent from such event, right? Well unfortunately, he did not make any new friend , but he did enjoyed the performances alot.

Some of the highlights:






















p.s. I love their dresses

这周末我回了Bucknell一趟，虽然累了点，总的感觉还挺不错。 见了很多旧的， 新的朋友。 本来还在犹豫星期六要不要回去， 在朋友的游说下，就这样子星期五晚8点整临时做了决定， 8点半就开车回了Bucknell. 哈哈。 单程2个小时半，11点到达Bucknell.

星期五晚 7st cafe 有个 open mic live performance， 本来在那跟力碰个面，没想到一下子碰到一大堆熟面孔。Jessi, Ashley, Nancy, Jim, Taeko, Karina ....。 也见到了Morgane. 要说Morgane, 现在每次见到她我总会有种莫名其妙尴尬的感觉， 虽然说都过了一段时间。 我想她也一样吧所以才装没注意到我。 Morgane是个好女孩， 当初我是不想欺骗她的感情而没给她一个机会。 而且因为忙， 我也没好好的处理事后的问题， 我想我肯定是伤害到她了。

1点多音乐结束后我走回Kress Hall, 跟nadir， nga， shiro, 和 irene他们聊了会儿后，就在Jim的启室里打铺了一晚。 第二天睡了中午才醒。 睡的才可以，就是脑袋瓜僵硬的很。 我想以后我都会记得随身带个枕头吧。 哈哈。

中午又见了几个朋友。 跟Tejo, michele她们玩了mario kart. 可怜的我总是排名最后。之后我又去见了Allison, 在她的舍室里看了一集Tokyo Juliet。 哈哈。 说起Tokyo Juliet, 早些也算因为它才认识了上她吧。 这人人小古怪，满脑子shopping. 老想我载她去mall， 去New york. 时儿甩甩小祖宗的脾气，她人方面吗却还不错。就缺乏了点自信心。

9点半我开车回了Baltimore...