今晚例外的早了一个多小时下课，又做完了presentation, 整个人感觉完全的开朗了起来。 一路开回来， 莫名其妙的打了很多电话，知道杨下来New York, 也打给了杨。 结果吓了她一跳， 也难怪，第一次打给她。 哈哈。回来后又决定跑了一趟Gym, 当时精神焕然，锻炼起来也体力十足。 出来后， 春风拂面而过， 鸟语花香， 再一次心情豁然。 回来洗个澡， 弄了晚餐。 虽然就短暂的几个小时， 感觉就好像我把我该做的全完成了， 我当时的感触： 太棒了。

这两天遇到了些挫折，莫名其妙的感觉自己又一次打回到了原点。 每次也都会因此自闭自我沉默的一段时间，想自己所做的一切， 所付出的一切不挽回，我的失败，然后自我检讨一番，告诉自己不要往后看，不许低下头。 我的人生还还漫长，才刚刚开始，要向前看，因为我的未来会是美好的。 然后又再次踏上了人生的路途。 有时我质疑我该不该埋怨自己所遭遇的一切。 为什么我总是要在挫折中成长。 不管我再怎么的努力常常都是徒劳的。 我很幸运这些经验让我自我认识了许多，也让我看清了许多世事。 可我现在可望的是能够过些正常平静的生活。我可望快乐的日子。 我真的厌倦了折磨。

So, Jim and other people are coming down this weekend and we are goning to have more hotpot nights, an extension to our long established tradition at Bucknell, thanks to my bros, you knows who you are That push me for some more aggressive household cleaning duties. Some wall punchings, room reconfiguration, moving and shaffling. Too bad I like to keep my place clean whenever friends come to visit, haha. Maybe they should really come visit more often so I can be as motivated to keep my apt tidy once in a while.

今晚去看了UMCP的春节晚会， 超棒。 特别是Fashion show那单元， 实在是美极了。 场上的二十几个models, 穿着不同民族的衣着， 有旗袍, 有朝鲜的， 有印度的， 有绅士的，有活辣， 给展千秋。 而且穿在中国女孩的身上显着特别有感觉。 清楚我的朋友都知道我特别欣赏古典风味的东西， 看到穿旗袍的，可想当时我是愣住了。 哈哈。

当时场下也是堆满了中国人， 真想不到UMCP的中国学生会这么多。 刚开始时院长讲了一句， “我们的中国生现已有一千多位。。。”， 天哪，怎么会有这么多中国学生。一千多？ 我们的学校总和才有3千多， 中国生还没半打。 我当时觉得后悔了，当初我怎么会选上了Bucknell. 。。。

北风呼呼的刮
雪花飘飘洒洒
突然传来了一声枪响
这匹狼他受了重伤
但他侥幸逃脱了
救它的是一只羊
从此它们约定三生
苦诉着衷肠

狼说亲爱的
谢谢你为我疗伤
不管未来有多少的风雨
我都为你去抗
羊说不要客气
谁让我爱上了你
在你身边有多么的危险
我都会陪伴你
就这样他们快乐的流浪
就这样他们为爱歌唱

狼爱上羊啊爱的疯狂
谁让他们真爱了一场
狼爱上羊啊并不荒唐
他们说有爱就有方向
狼爱上羊啊爱的风光
他们穿破世俗的城墙
狼爱上羊啊爱的疯狂
他们相互搀扶去远方

I got invited by Tiff to the new year party at her house. I ended up celebrating the night with a group of strangers, 60 people crowded in the house. I brought a bottle of La Monica Montepulciano D'abruzzo and a bottle of Remy martin VSOP, and hoping that this idea would bring me a whole new perspective and experience.

It was, for the good parts, I mingled and made some new friends. Everyone's happy and drinking up. Near new year tick, we counted down and toasted with champagne. The firework was splendid. A group of us then move along to the bar. A bunch was chanting "Happy New Year" amid the rain.

But at the time, a part of my feeling was ringing hollow. The same feeling when I'm alone or feel insignificant of myself. I've been wanting to understand that feeling. Longing friends and families was just symptom of the problem, I felt there was a deeper cause to the feeling.

Missy, hsiang, T and Jacksy would have been great people for such philosophical talk if we were still at school and hang out like old days. But now we have all moved on with our life, and good times don't come around. Missy were the closest to me location-wise. Occasionally, I would went back and visit her. But lately, it's been difficult to talk to her。 Hsiang has been one great true friend to me, giving me constant support at all times. T's amazingly smart. He's one of the very first person I met at Bucknell and get to knows him better through 4 years of college together. But his mind is progressing so rapidly since then that most of the time I had this feeling that I can no longer catch up to his thoughts. Jacksy's great though he remains much of a mystic man to me still. Haha

James asked me today what I want to do in the new year. I thought of things that happened in 2006. Truthly, a lots of new changes have happened. For one thing, I will not forget my last semester at Bucknell. I spent more time socializing than I spent on class work. Clubs,Bars,House Parties, Wing nights,Basketball Nights, Champagne, study breaks, late-night dunkin, mid march Halloween party, BU after darks, and Hot Pot nights. I guess it's what we called 'senioritis'. I also met Missy last semester through one of the Hot Pot Nights.

Then comes one of biggest moments of my life, the graduation. It was harsh, seeing everyone off and saying goodbye to them for real. Some I might never see them again. I've been fearing for the coming of this day. I know that once I graduated, it won't be the same again, even when I come back to Bucknell again. It rained bad that day and we were all sitting out in the open squad. It was bad that my mind was completely occupied by the coldness. I couldn't think more. It was good? that it left a lasting impression of that day.

Summer came, I took a trip to China. The trip was absolutely remarkable. I miss China. I traveled to several of main east coast cities including Beijing, Shanghai, hangzhou, suzhou, and etc. The free will of buying and eating everything I want since everything is so cheap there, is the best among the best feelings. It was also great living in a high furnished condo that oversee the heart of the city. I hope to visit there soon again.

When I came back, I was immediately plunged into another major change, my first career. Four months into my job, I'm still feeling unease over it. I like the learnings, but I still dislike the whole notion of working. Right now, I see it more as a temporary solution until I figure out a good way to live a better life. In the meanwhile, I will work hard and focus on my learning parts. As a part of effort, I started taking night classes at Johns Hopkins, and also volunteering math tutor at Baltimore County Community College.

Alot has happened in the 2006. But what is done is gone. we now look into 2007. For 2007, I made myself two goals. I want to focus more at what I do at works and make a fame for myself, haha. And I want to learn more about myself.

I'm supposed to be visiting Bucknell tonight with several of my friends, but I ended up instead lying home with a fever. I slept another 16 hours last night. When I woke up this morning, my body was feeling weak and still burning hot.

But as bad as it is to be sick, it is probably the only time when I can totally relax and relief myself. I'm alone by myself in my own world, no disturbance from the outside world, my mind totally free. Everything needed to be deal with I'll let it be deal with in the later. In a way, it has also make time for me to pick up reading from my book collection, which I have pretty much put to dust since I find myself to have less time to do so nowaday.

The day past by quietly. Tomorrow when I wake up, it sure will be just another day, like usual.