今晚去看了UMCP的春节晚会， 超棒。 特别是Fashion show那单元， 实在是美极了。 场上的二十几个models, 穿着不同民族的衣着， 有旗袍, 有朝鲜的， 有印度的， 有绅士的，有活辣， 给展千秋。 而且穿在中国女孩的身上显着特别有感觉。 清楚我的朋友都知道我特别欣赏古典风味的东西， 看到穿旗袍的，可想当时我是愣住了。 哈哈。

当时场下也是堆满了中国人， 真想不到UMCP的中国学生会这么多。 刚开始时院长讲了一句， “我们的中国生现已有一千多位。。。”， 天哪，怎么会有这么多中国学生。一千多？ 我们的学校总和才有3千多， 中国生还没半打。 我当时觉得后悔了，当初我怎么会选上了Bucknell. 。。。

北风呼呼的刮
雪花飘飘洒洒
突然传来了一声枪响
这匹狼他受了重伤
但他侥幸逃脱了
救它的是一只羊
从此它们约定三生
苦诉着衷肠

狼说亲爱的
谢谢你为我疗伤
不管未来有多少的风雨
我都为你去抗
羊说不要客气
谁让我爱上了你
在你身边有多么的危险
我都会陪伴你
就这样他们快乐的流浪
就这样他们为爱歌唱

狼爱上羊啊爱的疯狂
谁让他们真爱了一场
狼爱上羊啊并不荒唐
他们说有爱就有方向
狼爱上羊啊爱的风光
他们穿破世俗的城墙
狼爱上羊啊爱的疯狂
他们相互搀扶去远方

I got invited by Tiff to the new year party at her house. I ended up celebrating the night with a group of strangers, 60 people crowded in the house. I brought a bottle of La Monica Montepulciano D'abruzzo and a bottle of Remy martin VSOP, and hoping that this idea would bring me a whole new perspective and experience.

It was, for the good parts, I mingled and made some new friends. Everyone's happy and drinking up. Near new year tick, we counted down and toasted with champagne. The firework was splendid. A group of us then move along to the bar. A bunch was chanting "Happy New Year" amid the rain.

But at the time, a part of my feeling was ringing hollow. The same feeling when I'm alone or feel insignificant of myself. I've been wanting to understand that feeling. Longing friends and families was just symptom of the problem, I felt there was a deeper cause to the feeling.

Missy, hsiang, T and Jacksy would have been great people for such philosophical talk if we were still at school and hang out like old days. But now we have all moved on with our life, and good times don't come around. Missy were the closest to me location-wise. Occasionally, I would went back and visit her. But lately, it's been difficult to talk to her。 Hsiang has been one great true friend to me, giving me constant support at all times. T's amazingly smart. He's one of the very first person I met at Bucknell and get to knows him better through 4 years of college together. But his mind is progressing so rapidly since then that most of the time I had this feeling that I can no longer catch up to his thoughts. Jacksy's great though he remains much of a mystic man to me still. Haha

James asked me today what I want to do in the new year. I thought of things that happened in 2006. Truthly, a lots of new changes have happened. For one thing, I will not forget my last semester at Bucknell. I spent more time socializing than I spent on class work. Clubs,Bars,House Parties, Wing nights,Basketball Nights, Champagne, study breaks, late-night dunkin, mid march Halloween party, BU after darks, and Hot Pot nights. I guess it's what we called 'senioritis'. I also met Missy last semester through one of the Hot Pot Nights.

Then comes one of biggest moments of my life, the graduation. It was harsh, seeing everyone off and saying goodbye to them for real. Some I might never see them again. I've been fearing for the coming of this day. I know that once I graduated, it won't be the same again, even when I come back to Bucknell again. It rained bad that day and we were all sitting out in the open squad. It was bad that my mind was completely occupied by the coldness. I couldn't think more. It was good? that it left a lasting impression of that day.

Summer came, I took a trip to China. The trip was absolutely remarkable. I miss China. I traveled to several of main east coast cities including Beijing, Shanghai, hangzhou, suzhou, and etc. The free will of buying and eating everything I want since everything is so cheap there, is the best among the best feelings. It was also great living in a high furnished condo that oversee the heart of the city. I hope to visit there soon again.

When I came back, I was immediately plunged into another major change, my first career. Four months into my job, I'm still feeling unease over it. I like the learnings, but I still dislike the whole notion of working. Right now, I see it more as a temporary solution until I figure out a good way to live a better life. In the meanwhile, I will work hard and focus on my learning parts. As a part of effort, I started taking night classes at Johns Hopkins, and also volunteering math tutor at Baltimore County Community College.

Alot has happened in the 2006. But what is done is gone. we now look into 2007. For 2007, I made myself two goals. I want to focus more at what I do at works and make a fame for myself, haha. And I want to learn more about myself.

I'm supposed to be visiting Bucknell tonight with several of my friends, but I ended up instead lying home with a fever. I slept another 16 hours last night. When I woke up this morning, my body was feeling weak and still burning hot.

But as bad as it is to be sick, it is probably the only time when I can totally relax and relief myself. I'm alone by myself in my own world, no disturbance from the outside world, my mind totally free. Everything needed to be deal with I'll let it be deal with in the later. In a way, it has also make time for me to pick up reading from my book collection, which I have pretty much put to dust since I find myself to have less time to do so nowaday.

The day past by quietly. Tomorrow when I wake up, it sure will be just another day, like usual.

Time flys by so quickly. It's been three weeks since I started my new rotation working with the radar group. For one thing, I have a better feel for this rotation compares with my previous one. I'm working with a better group of people, a better program, and I have a great manager. Jeff inspires me. He's very knowledgeable, hard working, has strong work ethic, and very respectful of others. Jeff reminds me of my mentor Jay at the DoD internship. Both of them made a great role model for me.

But three weeks into the program, I'm still lost as to what I'm supposed to do. That bothers me. I've been doing a lot of catchup readings. It helps but not enough to clear up my head. It's like I have every piece of puzzle at hand except for the crucial pieces that glues the whole puzzle together. Until I find those piece, it remains a puzzle to me. That cumulate alot of stresses for me lately. I'm back on struggles.

Tonight NEAT has a duckpin bowling event. I went. It helped release my stresses I supposed.

这周末请了Jim, Li, Tingting, 跟yu yang他们到家里吃火涡。 好久没有像以前那样一群人在一起聊天吃火涡， 还满开心的。 就是显然还有点慌忙， 毕竟还是第一次请朋友到家里。 他们来的前一天， 我就去了纽约唐人街买了很多海鲜火涡料理。 那天还下起了暴雨。 回来后， 又匆忙的清洗下apartment， 买了四双拖鞋跟一个枕头。 本来要做的事， 后来也没做成。

Jim他们快9点多才到， 从Bucknell开车到Baltimore要三个小时多。 他们来之前我以为把东西都准备好了。 后来Jim说芝麻油不够用， 我们又开车出去买。 10点多左右， 大家集合围着火锅开始拼命。 我还真不能小看他们， 吃起来一个比一个有干劲！ 力最聪明，一言不发在那仅吃。 哈哈。 像这吃法哪能坚持的了久啊。 我还想我们可以跟之前一样吃到天亮。 没多久，大家都吃涨了。 之后ting ting跟力回房间上网，我们三个男就在客厅里聊了起来。 时间过得真快一下子就3点多了。 后来我们又开了两瓶红酒， 弄了绿茶， 到了5点多才睡。 总觉得我们现在就有点像中国版本的reality show。 一群某人生活在同一个屋檐下，虽然是短暂的，真的很有趣的。第二天中午醒来，吃了我爱吃的汤圆跟甜心包，下午我们又吃了第二次火锅。 好开心　

这次下来，本来我还准备带他们去买东西，然后周围逛逛。 后来ting ting说paper很多要写就不想去了。 之前我们也是权过她后她才肯下来。 ting ting在用功上倒有点像当初的我。 别人都说我是杰型的nerd, 我说都是paper惹得祸！

就这样子， 又过了一个Thanksgiving。 今天下午从公司回来的时候，车上放着圣诞歌，还是我最喜欢Canon的版曲。 时间过得好快，很快又一年了。 我又成熟一岁了吗？ 还是像她们说的那样我很孩子气。