I'm so excited my bookshelf finally arrived today. My five boxes of books that have been gathering dust at corners for the past several months can now finally find a comfy shiny-glorious looking home. :D
I'm so loving it!! It got five levels, large and spacious! I took a picture of it so I can post it up here. I absolutely think that this is gotta be one of the best gifts that I have given myself and it will keep me happy for many many days

Alot of things have been fast track back and forth in the past couple weeks as I'm trying to recover and keep pace with my momentum in life. I've been more busy than ever and as it seemed that all my time has been pretty much all tightened up. Aside from my typical work days, Monday's night I have class at John Hopkins, Wednesday's my karate training night, Thursday's my tutoring night at Baltimore County Community College, weekend's devoted to my study and project assignments. In between, I find time slot to do my workout, to make up hours for my training and to fill in all my other extra-curriculum activities.

When I do get some free times, that's when I have a chance to work on my site which I ultimately enjoy alot. But lately, I'm having alot of difficulty and negative experiences dealing with my ex domain provider. I have no choice but to switch out. That cost me a great deal of time and $$ for the migration.

For the past two weeks, I have been consistently staying up past 2 in the morning trying to get most time out of my day. Obviously, I'm not very satisfied with all the time I got. But when I do that consistently, the fatigue kicks in eventually. I felt my body has been lagging behind lately.

I need sleep, but I need more time as well!

I guess I did another amazing thing today for the humanity cause. I signed up as a volunteer math tutor for the Baltimore County Community College. It is a two months commitment to begin with, tutoring at all levels of math and with the possibility of getting part time teaching tenture. The lady at the department said they are desperately in need of tutors. But the way she described it were so freaking scary. "98% of our students here need help of some form. Some even have problem conceiving 2 - 3" she said. I hope she did not literally means that. Anyway, I look forward to my first day of tutoring. Indeed I wonder.

It was desvastating when my file space were wiped and my site was down for the last 5 days. It was more furiating and total upset when my tech supports did nothing to help. Somehow I had this feeling that they were retaliating against me for bashing and making negative comments of them. They were slow at responding, very unprofession and terrible at supports. I made it clear to them that if nothing were done by yesterday, I will quit their service. I spent more than 4 hours with them over 10 chat sessions. Still nothing were taken care of. I was about to quit when the quality assurance group got back to me. They restored my file within less than half an hour. That furiated me more. Why couldn't the technicans does that 5 days ago when it is as simple as restoring my data? I also found out that they have the same 'out-source' technicians handling sale, customer support, and tech service. Seriously, unless they make effort to improve it, I assure they will lose revenue very soon!

What has happened I don't know, but for once I was feeling very happy and hyper tonight. Some nerves must had tangled up. I couldn't help smiling and chuckling up. The joy was there and overwhelming. The feeling brings back the old me where I was all inpired and energized to take on the world. There was no perception of fear, no doubt of my ability to tramp all inpossibilities. I feel loved and the life's all wonderful.

That was the feeling I lost a long while ago when I turned myself over to the reality. The pessimism hitted me as I became more obesessed over life. Once in a while, a shred of light dim through. I supposed that's what happened tonight.

Nonetheless, the renew feeling was awesomely great. Many happy thoughts subsequently flows throught. I thought about how lucky I'm, having a wonderful family and many wonderful friends. I thought about my career,having a solid path and positive future. I shoved away all the negative thoughts or rather I perceive them positively.

Indeed I'm on the path of budha enlightenment...

I hope for that feeling to lasts endlessly...

Once in a while those questions came to me. What if I have a million dollar. What if I hit a jackpot lottery. What if I came up with a brilliant idea like those of Google, Facebook, Youtube, Myspace, or QQ. Then it would be a dream comes true and I would retire (Yes, I would!). My life would be all beautiful afterward. Get to enjoy everything I love to do and to live life to its fullest. Happy ending, wouldn't it? Sure this is a dream of everyone. Those companies I mentioned are all started by teens like just me, and it's not unlikely that I might hit the jackpot one day. Just a bit of inspiration with a bit of luck, and the world's mine!!

I often hear people says that money isn't everything and it can't buy you the world. But without the money, I say you might as well go jump off the bridge. Our society has deteriorate to an extent nowadway that our life has become completely dependent on it. Think about it, where would you be and what role you would play in the society if you have no money? This bring up the depressing fact that for the next 40 years of my life, I will be working my life away. That is, if no luck hits me. How depressing

There are 24 hours in a day. On a typical day, I spent 8 hours sleeping, 1 hour on the road, 2 hours eating, 8 hours working, 2 hours other misc futile activities. That left me at most 3 hours of quality time, less some non-productive time. It's scarely when you realized how short life truly is. That bring back the question, what if I have lot, Lot, LOT of Money.

So much for the daydreaming.

Pics from my cousin's wedding past weekend. Wasn't so happy that the homecoming weekend was on the same weekend which I missed.


my cousin & her man

A friend told me today that she's upset because she got bad grades on what she tried hard on. She asked me what to do. I told her that she should believe in herself and never quit trying. When she try, everything can be possible. That was my bold answer to her. But whether that is true or not, even I questioned myself. Everyone has been trying, for a purpose or for a dream. Yet how often do we witnessed a dream comes true? I'm no exception either. There are things that even if I try all I could I still could not possibly accomplish. But knowingly, I keep on trying. I didn't want to give up hoping. The reality is cruel and unfair most of the time. I don't know if I could called this fate. But I have tried to defy fate.